Welcome to 2015
Welcome
to a new beginning, a fresh start and new adventures ahead. I know there are
some things I will look
forward to whilst some others will fill me with
fear. If anything 2014 proved to me that I am a survivor. Some things have gone
my way while others have not. That’s life I'm afraid. Some things I liked while
there were others that I didn't like. Some things I handled well while
others I wished I had handled better. One thing that I can rest assured will
happen is that things will change. Why? Because life changes and I have changed
too. I know that some of the changes that lay ahead will be embraced while others I may want to resist. None the less change will come.
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I
celebrated my birthday yesterday and what might have filled me with dread
earlier on in the year was not the reality that I had imaged. I witnessed an outpouring of love.
For the first time, in a long while, I recognised it and embraced it. It felt
incredible! I felt like whatever had been blocking me from seeing it before
had been taken away and I was able to see, feel and receive it. I felt humbled
and cherished. I was under a spotlight of love. Usually in the past
I have tried to stay away from the spotlight. I have usually felt uncomfortable and unworthy. I have often tried to turn the attention onto something else or
someone else. But yesterday I sat in it, felt it, received it and l slept in
it. It felt so good to rest in that place? I don't know why I have been
running from it for so long! It felt good to be with me. Do you understand what
I mean? This feeling filled me with such love and acceptances that I was
compelled to shared it. When I shared it I even felt more! If this is how it feels to receive
and stand in this outpouring then bring it on!
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I
didn't plan anything for my birthday, frustrating some of my friends, but felt
I wanted to allow the day to unfold with no expectations. By midday my Facebook
had blown filled with messages and I was astonished. On one level it felt
incredible! Of course I am English so set about thanking everyone whilst thinking it was over. I received some money gifts and went out to get a little
pampered. Unexpectedly a friend came to join me bringing laughter and gifts.
I'm smiling now just remembering how we belly laughed with each other, at each other and at life. By the time I came home
I was high from the laughter and joy. My phone had been blowing up all day with texts,
whatapp, viber messages and so much more and I felt good from within. Let me say that again. I felt good from within. Then my
laptop started making noise and when I looked at where the noise was coming
from I soon realised it was my Facebook alerts. When I opened it up there were so many more messages
from all over the world, friends, family and well-wishers. I was overwhelmed. I spent time on Facetime with my mum and children and felt so privileged that I was in this time and space and able to receive their expressions of love. My mother is some kind of wonderful, My youngest is a beautiful being and my eldest shared something she had written from her heart which I received in mine. To know you are truly
loved and accepted is better than any tonic, drug, music, man (yes I said it)
because it fills your soul.
I
am going to say it again: To know you are truly loved and accepted is better than any tonic, drug, music or man (yes I
said it) because it fills your soul.
Where
do I sit knowing that change is coming? Well if 2014 is anything to go by as I said already I am a survivor. I know that I
will not walk the path of 2014 again. I am glad that I walked that
path. There have been times when I feared that I might not reach the end but
here I am in 2015. Don't get me wrong there have been challenges but when
you have support, or when you allow yourself to be supported, it is amazing
what happens.
Being 'strong' doesn't mean you have to carry everything alone.
Being 'strong' means that you know when you actually need help and that you are
not afraid to say 'I need help'. Being 'strong' is recognising that it’s not
all about how you are going to do it but about how it is going to get done. Sometimes
things get done when you move out the way. Being 'strong' is about allowing
others to share their gifts with you to make yours and their world better.
Being 'strong' is knowing when to let go.
I learnt some of the above last year and I know that in the coming year I will be challenged to practise this even more.
My
New Year's wish is to have my soul filled for 2015 feeling good from within. I know you (meaning 2015) have
some surprises for me but ready or not here I am. My wish for you reading this
blog is that 2015 is the year when your soul is filled with what will make you
whole.
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