Where have I been?




Where have I been?  Reyna Biddy's quote says it best ........

“Don’t be afraid to distance yourself from everyone + everything and recoup. sort out your thoughts. listen to your heart. breathe. read a book. write about how much your life has sucked - then write about how much you can’t wait to see the positive changes. relearn yourself. accept all the hurt you’ve been through. forgive anyone and everyone who’s hurt you. even if that means doing it within, and never physically or verbally reaching out. let go. & rejuvenate. take a step away from the chaos, and find peace. within.”      Reyna Biddy

So sorry I've been missing but understand that sometimes you just need to withdraw. 

I'm on a journey. I have been been focused a little on my inside being and now part of that  phase is coming to an end. Sometimes I needed to be distracted. I needed to feel the stretch of growth.  I needed to feel the panic of distance. I needed to feel a sense of fear that I was missing something, I needed to  just be where I was. I have to admit that somethings have felt oh so easy whilst others have been a little more frustrating and scary at times.  Sometimes I  have felt quite lonely resulting in me struggling with some difficult feelings that I have had to work through. I have even come so close to doing things that would have made me feel even worse about myself and I thank God that people, who truly love me,  stopped me from making painful mistakes even though I convinced myself that I would have felt so..... good ha ha (you know who you are). 

Where am I now?  

I am trying to tap into what is my true passion. I realise I have many talents/gifts and I have been using some while not even thinking about others.  They in turn have become my strengths but not my passion. The dust hasn't settled yet so  I'm going to dig a little deeper ........ 
shovel in the sand RGBstock.com

Trust a little more............... 

Listen...............

Let pathways  unfolds ..............

Let pathways reveal themselves effortlessly.................

Attract rather than pursue..................

This is my intention


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